To answer this question I would say 'no'.
And its frustrating to keep being obedient to the business. Show up as a parent. Be okay with having to be in corporate after a four year hiatus; that I don't have the energy to show up for myself. Not excited to show up each day and participate in the day!
Recently, I received some insight on a past relationship and I called the friend up to tell her thank you. At the time I was just frustrated at the results I was getting out of the relationship. How she didn't show up for me, the lack of the reciprocation to my efforts. So I withdrew from the relationship and prior to calling her a few weeks ago had zero communication in about 6 months.
What prompted that insight was observing my son. One day he is full of gratitude, expressing abundant thanks for a breakfast I cooked, words I said when he needed to hear them, anything that was meaningful and how and when he wanted it. But the minute he would expect it and not receive it- full complaint. I mean full on conveying of how disappointed he is, inconvenienced he is, etcetera.
Am I this dramatic in my appreciation but also unsatisfaction when its not how and when I want?!
Wow.
I mean my son will not eat and walk around with his lip out for all the morning if i didn't make a big breakfast on the day he wanted at the right time. And here I am not even wanting to participate in the day. The results aren't looking like I want so now I want no parts of any of it. Lip out full of complaint.
Kids and spouses are a mirror to show you the triggers and blind spots but also your heart posture.
What do you do with the information revealed about yourself.