Acceptance of the Process

I use to be an event planner. My first business I launched in 2010 was Reflective Image Productions, a community and private event curator. many of the events I was the sole sponsor. I also didn't have the same responsibilities I do now, a child. On top of we weren't in a recession with stupid dumb increases in rent, car insurance, heck groceries. It was a different time. 

It's so interesting how much we allow outside influences affect how we feel when required to do what we once enjoyed. 

What I'm realizing in this season of stretched finances are a few things.

• My provision comes from Him. 
• It's not by my might nor power

           I have to work for this

           I have to trust through this

           I have to have some skin in the game

                     With finances

                     Sacrifice

                     Time

                     Energy

                     Be fully dedicated

Reflecting; if I was married, or at a high paying job I wouldn't be stretched, nor would my character be built in such a way. I wouldn't be as invested in Lush Vegan. It would be a hobby something I dabble in for years and friends and family say "Girl, you should start a business." But I don't because I don't need to at the end of the day. I don't need the headache, I don't desire the freedom and am ok with haphazardly using my gift at my convenience existing in a comfortable life that I have created for myself. 

In all thy getting get an understanding. 

I may not know the full extent just yet as to why. But the growing of my faith is needed, the drive, the determination much needed. The cost vey much worth the admission just to enter the room to see what will happen.